So I suck at Blogging...

I am really no good at this blogging thing. I just write what is in my head...probably not how it's done. :) But, if I wrote every thought on Facebook, I would drive people crazy, right? Oh, yeah, I do kinda do that. So, anyway, you are stuck with me. My bad grammar, horrible punctuation and every flighty thought and deep intense emotion. Or..you can just skip it, and move on to something more entertaining and literate. :) Weighing heavily on my mind today is mothers and sons. Namely, me and my sons, my husband and his mother, his aunt and her son, and my uncle and my grandmother. I pause to look at each relationship...and see...the tight bond, and the deep crevice that misunderstandings, jealousy, illness, and disabilities can cause. When the parent is forever a caregiver instead of a parent..24/7 and when sometimes, the child becomes the parent. That's something most people look at from a distance and have no concept of the enormity of the emotion, struggle, exhaustion and traumatic stress it puts on those involved and the relationship. I feel sad for all those mothers that punish or worry that they aren't or won't be good moms, or that their sons somehow love them less when they become men and want to marry and love someone who will one day mother his children. I wonder, not having daughters if that dynamic exists with fathers and daughters because I lost mine and don't know my biological father except on sight. I want my sons, and future daughter in laws to know..I am here for the long haul, but to hope for their happiness, success, individuality and unconditional support. Always.